Almost A Decade

9 years. Doesn't seem that long ago. But to see the changes in my little guy has been amazing. He was such a cute little guy when he was born. When I found out we were having a boy we pretty much knew his name immediately. And as many of my friends can tell you I laid down the law on what nicknames he could and could not have. LOL!!! Even talking about wheeling down the hall from recovery to my post partum room. What an adventure I have been on these last nine years. And what an absolutely amazing, yes I am using the word again, child to start my journey with as a mother. He is just a blessing no matter how I look at it.

Hugs to my big guy~
Raye

At the Stock Show on his birthday

Happy 6th Birthday

Ahhh. The 24th has arrived. I must say I am actually happy today. I am not jumping around but I am happy. Even though I tear up as I sit here and type this post. I have started to be able to celebrate this day for what it is. Ryan's Birthday. Not the day he died. That is a huge difference to me. Hopefully that is a big difference to most people. Am I sad of course. I wish he was here to celebrate with but I will still celebrate. We will head off to our family dinner and be happy! Tonight when we get home I will look into the stars and smile. I smile with the firm belief he is smiling back at us. He will blow his candles out on his cake to give me those stars. What a great present to us.

Lots of love,
Raye