My Baby is 3!!

Oh my gosh. My baby is three today. It is so weird to remember that at this time three years ago I was heading to my last appt at Dr Payne's office. I was actually going to cancel this appt but decided to go anyway. Good thing. I remember Dr Payne telling me after my ultrasound it was baby day. I was thinking yep that is right. Next Thursday is delivery day. And he was like No TODAY is baby day. He told me he was calling Dr Reimer and I was going to deliver that day because I had basically no fluid left. I remember calling Doug and telling him to turn off his computer and leave the office. No questions just leave and meet me at the house. So at approx 2 pm on Friday Jacob Ryan was born. I remember hearing him cry for the first time and just this wave of relief and elation wash over me. All I could say to Doug is "He's crying, He's crying". Then they started working on him. He was grunting so they were a little worried. They rolled him by me and took him to the NICU. Dr Reimer was so sweet. After they rolled Jake away he leaned down and gave me a hug. I think he was as happy as we were that Jake was here and safe. Jake being in the NICU freaked Doug out a little. I completely understand where he was coming from. But a few hours later Jake was off CPAP and doing fine. Just had to get his lungs dried out. Who knew what a crazy preschooler that kid would become? He is just absolutely crazy. He is the insanity that is the temper to William's calm. It is so cool to see them grow up together. Jake really worships his older brother. He is William's parrot. It is so sweet to see it. Granted they try and beat it each other up a little too much but what are you going to do with brothers? The journey continues.
Much love today,
Raye

1 day old

3 yrs

Gone Too Soon

I wasn't going to blog about this but I just feel moved to. On Wednesday night our dear friend Carmen Lee passed away from a heart attack. She was only 51. Carmen came into our life right about the time I graduated from High School. Becky and I worked at a daycare in Bedford that Carmen's kids attended. She was Ashlee's 3 year old teacher and struck up a friendship with Carmen. Carmen was the Matron of Honor at Spec's wedding and did the flowers for my wedding. How blessed was I that she could do that for me? She was amazing with flowers. She had Indian Hawthorne growing in her backyard and so she took that and made the amazing floral balls for the flower girls to carry. They were amazing. Carmen was someone that would not think twice about helping you if you were in need. She always put others first. She was diagnosed with cancer years ago and when she beat that everyone thought life would be great. How just wrong is it that after beating cancer she is taken from this world by a heart attack? Words can't explain how wrong it is. Becky said something to me the other day that made perfect sense. We are all here on this earth for a reason. Some are here for good others not so good. As soon as we fulfill our purpose our time is done and we are called home. It takes some decades to do that some only weeks. This idea does not necessarily make is easier for us left behind but hopefully brings peace. It is not ours to know until all is revealed when we meet the Lord but personally for me I wish I could know. Just to make the pain a little easier. Making sense of the loss helps the pain just a little.
Lots of love,
Raye

Bound To Happen

It was bound to happen. I have been warning William since Jake was a baby. I have proof Jake is going to beat the you know what out of William some day. We were at the park today for a dinner picnic. They were playing with this little boy. William and this boy decided Jake was the monster and starting chasing him. Jake decided "yeah right, I am going to get you!" so he started to fight back. It was hilarious. Jake didn't go after the other little boy, just William. It begins.....
((hugs))
Rachel

The first punch

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All Grown Up

Oh my gosh. My little guy walked home today for the first time. Well not completely alone. Doug met him at the crosswalk and basically followed him home. Since Doug is working from home William is going to just walk home instead of us paying for after school care. Especially since we only live about a block and a half away. I walked home a longer distance in elementary school. Looking back that is a marathon compared to what William will walk. You know the Keller ISD. It is like living in Salt Lake with a Mormon chapel on every corner the Keller ISD has an elementary on every corner. LOL!!!